kiss the rings

time is a wonderful healer, my friend.

henry clay

falling behind.

Thanks to some encouragement from Gina, I'm gonna make another zine: the next one is gonna be about American Civil War portraits and US statesmen from the early-mid 1800's. I want to compare the photographs with paintings:

Henry Clay

According to his wikipedia article: "Henry Clay, Sr. (April 12, 1777 – June 29, 1852) was a nineteenth-century American statesman and orator who represented Kentucky in both the House of Representatives and Senate. He served as Secretary of State from 1825 to 1829."

other things and recent events:

liquor shoes

eating a klondike bar in the shower

treehouses of the world

sitting in the park, workin' on a even tan

fighting

fish sandwiches

not fighting

cammisa goes to Berlin

some other things

summer mixes

'astral weeks'

Do You Want To Know Us?

Do You Want To Know Us?

group show by Jazmin Venus Soto

I will be in a showing MAY 22 and selling my zine

"Things I left at home that I needed today"

There is also an artist panel speaking at 66 W 12th St on the 4th Floor

the speakers are:::

Aurel Schmidt
Asher Penn
Ann Messner
Elizabeth DeMarray

The panel starts @ 6:30. the room isn't super huge, so you probably should RSVP to doyouwant.toknowus @ gmail.com

Other cool people showing work:

Ryan Naideau

Cammisa Forrest
Jazmin Venus Soto

Monica Uszerowicz

Sarah Castronovo

Xavier Veal/Gregg Cook

Horatio Baltz

Leah Meltzer
Ryan Whittier Hale
Jesse Hlebo

also gonna be there with stuff:

Gina Murdock

Geoff Kim

Maya Barrera Loeb
Emma Choy Brown
Naima Woods
Reni Washere
Paige Lipari

bits and pieces from "Things I left at home that I needed today"

MORE

My ears hurt from not taking my headphones off for 12 hrs.

But they are not enough to keep the people out.

I am going to start wearing a surgical mask.

I've been drinking and working on lists with friends/

most of these I can not take credit for/

(please get a copy of the book when it comes out on the 22nd)

things I have lost

my bike

car in parking lot

sleep

friends

the other earring

colors with interesting names (mostly Michael)

sandal slip

reddish

double green

radio blue

laser teal
PINKPLE

bleen (Sarah)

tattoos I don't have

RUMOURS (fleetwood mac)

a parade of elephants

things I didn't like about you

you were too sensitive

you made me feel bad

you were gay

you were too scared to have an adventure

things I did like about you

your accent

your b.o

you defended me

you laughed too much

hire me
memories of yony
better kind of facebook

the innanet

I'm taking a web design class this semester so I can have a portfolio website. It was a bad idea, it has never taken me so long to be mediocre at something before.

I've been making lists for a long time now. I kind of want to write about 40 blank lists and invite a bunch of girls over and make everyone sit in a real big circle. Then we would pass out the lists and everyone would have 60 seconds to write as many things as they could before switching with the person on their left.

I had help with this, you know who you are. maybe you are embarrassed.

maybe I am going to illustrate this.

things i didn't like about you:

you were short

you used paint palettes as ashtrays

you never made me anything, just talked about it

you smoked all my weed and then fell asleep

you broke my toilet

you didn't like my dog

things i did like about you:

you paid attention

you smelled my hair

you liked hammocks

we went on roadtrips

you wrote me a bad song - and a good one

you played chess

things to do at the beach

sleep

apply sunscreen

read a book

draw a cartoon

undo your top strap

dig a hole

eat a popsicle

drink a beer and hide it in the sand

favorite times to smoke a joint

during my lunch break/ down the street in front of the loading dock

walking to the train in the morning before everyone else is awake

while watching twin peaks

with group partners in 'radio documentary' class

actors who only play one character

whoopie goldberg

christian slater

arnold schwarzenneggah

keaneau

christopher lloyd

jennifer anniston

things that are overrated

miranda july

thick pancakes

the magnetic fields

cadbury eggs

cats

college?

granola

not ever leaving new york

names of ex-friends

Obie

RJ

Sara

Brittany

Amadi

Michael

Greg

Angad

things that are underrated

flossing

the bus system

things i have lost

subway card

ipod charger

my ability to read sarcasm

scabs

many movies/ more books

virginity

my favorite cookbook

$20 . definitely a lot more

half of both of my two front teeth

colors with interesting names including crayola names

ochre

cerulean

umber

ruby

peridot

cyan

lavender

atomic tangerine

pumpernickle

beaver

things life would be better without

the girl who thinks she is my boss, but absolutely is not

the hair that gets stuck in my mouth/ your mouth when we are kissing

rooms without windows

when you try and make those faces

things i left at home that i needed today

my notebook

overdue library book

headphones

my external hard drive

film

clean underwear

lunch money

feelings i get on the subway

nausea

a quietness

'shit, why did i have to see you here?'

'im stuck'

interested observation/ disinterested observation

routine

sticky feet

a dedication to vegetarianism

magazines i like

national geographic

capricious

n+1

found magazine

arthur magazine

things i want to do to my teacher

cut his hair

paint his toes

listen to him talk about whatever book he's reading

fog his glasses

end.

of me wasting time in the ucc

heartbreaker

HEARTBREAKER is finished. Below is a screen shot of one of the pages.

CLICK HERE TO SEE THE MAGAZINE

Thank you, Monica.

Thank you, Artun.

Congrats!

alphabet of hate

reference previous post.
EARLY FALL 2004

hate is like
A, ants, besides biting people, they make you feel fat and lazy. runner up: animaniacs
B, bruised beyond repair fruit, when you want a fuckin banana badly.
C, cocaine, gives me the creeps. seeing people with little white powder crumbs glued by snot to their nostril fur is gross. runner up: christmas freaks, car crashes
D, dead animal roadkill. pigeons are the worst, really any bird that gets hit by a car is the saddest thing of all. Runner up: dandruff.
E, emily, the whole entire western world is named emily. maybe i will move to Nepal or Japan where emily will be an exotic delicacy among names. in the mean time, I've started spelling it different ways: emmalea, emilie, etc. runner up: everRest, why? Its my tag when I flirted with being a (shitty) wall artist.
F, fat people, forgive me, because i know this is an obvious choice. Runner up: forgiveness, why? because it doesn’t exist.
G, guilt, wy does every nationality claim to have their own kind? catholics, jews, asians, its all the same. runner up: goiders
H, Henry Rollins, is some stupid, militant dickhead who is on VH1. that’s punk. runner up: holy cows
I, iguana owners, i dont know if i have ever met any before, but its weird. is this the way that retards think about gay people? runner up: independence high school
J, jeweled navels on sluts. runner up: jerry as in ‘tom and jerry’. i hate that mouse.
K, kitchen cuts spiked with lemon. runner up: killing roaches, killing cramps
L, losing against losers. runner up: lobster hands
M, mediocre babies, that sucks. they havnt even had the chance to do anything yet. runner up: mossy teeth.
N, “nigger toes”, I heard this for the first time a few weeks ago. Apparently it’s another word for brazil nuts. runner up: nazi popes, i afriKan should have won.
O, old-looking young people. this makes me angry for some reason. runner up: oily hands
P, public embarrassment: pant peeing/erections, tripping, farting, boogers, body odor, mispronunciations, mismatched socks, messy hair, broken fingernails. these things should all stop by the time you are 14. (NOT- i actually like this.) runner up: puke
Q, quick massages, its almost better to have never had anything in the first place. runner up: when my mom calls things ‘queer’
R, raisins, fuck nature's candy. runner up: robot voices
S, sour cream & onion, i especially dislike pringles. runners up: soul patches, sour cream & onion, sour milk-milkshakes, stealing/stealers from people; from big companies its ok
T, too much make-up, accents, time, stuffed animals... runner up: tetanus shots
U, unreturned phone calls, the worst way to be dumped in the history of forever. it happened to me once, and now, i feel tarnished or something. i still want my stuff back, you asshole. runner up: U2. i hate bono, especially when i see him being interviewed in documentaries or on the news. their music sucks too.
V, vacuuming when you are trying to watch tv, i hated this shit when i was a kid. You’d try to turn the volume up really loud to overpower the cacophony but it never works. runner up: vd. VD is a really good phrase that shouldn’t have gone out of style.
W, waiting a really long time for food at a restaurant. runner up: windowless rooms
X, x-mas freaks/ department store obsessives. i cheated with this. runner up: the ‘X-treme’ jello i got for getting my wisdom teeth out.
Y, the yearling. and almost all required reading books for that matter, especially jane austen. slaughterhouse-5, catch-22, and bury my heart at wounded knee were good. runner up: ‘year of the rat’- what a bad chinese zodiac sign to be. wouldn’t you prefer a dragon?
Z, zoinks. im done.

a little different

EARLY FALL 2004

love is like
A, artichokes, quarted, marinated, imported from Spain. runner up: alien heads
B, body heat, images of being cold and then seeing a lovely, glowing anyone who unzips a oversized sweatshirt and lets me in and zips it back all the way up. I want to be consumed, to feel heat from all sides. runner up: babysnakes, babycakes, babydays
C, cat stevens, made amazing music years ago. runner up: candle wax finger tips, cel-rey soda
D, dancing, is difficult to do in your car, and ideally makes your head luminescent. runner up: diary
E, elephants, future tattoo worthy? runner up: embers
F, fingernails, keep them short and sweet. they are wonderful, so don’t fuck them up. don’t grow only one out really long, cause that’s what homeless people do so they can scrape the street lice out of their ears. If your fingernails are long because you play guitar or sitar some shit, it really isn’t any excuse. runner up: funky dibetics, dime bags full of funk, some funky saxophonists
G, gangsta rap: tupac, there is something admirable about the kids who think tupac is still alive. It’s almost romantic. I’d like to think that Tupac is just chillin somewhere in Jamaica too. runner up: jerseys (vintage hawks)
H, HBO, specifically, Six Feet Under. The greatest show ever. I watch it when I’m depressed, only, I think it makes it worse. runner up: helium
I, Ignatius J. Reilly, from "A Confederacy of Dunces" by John Kennedy Toole. At 31, Toole committed suicide in Biloxi, Ms by running a hose from the exhaust pipe of his car to the inside and then locking himself in. After his death, his mother published his work. He became popular and famous. runner up: inner-tubing down rivers
J, joy ride, (midnights and mornings). runner up: jerusalem, in a poetic sense
K, kites, buoys in the sky supported by a thin, tiny, almost invisible string. runner up: kindergarten handholders
L, leaving differently then you came, {self-explanatory}. Runner up: Latin. Too bad the language is dead. talk to the pope, except he’s a Nazi.
M, mmhmm, the soft, breathy, subtle something people make trying to fall asleep or when they feel too good to talk. runner up: musical psychology
N, noisy nights, cars skids, locus, drunk kids, static, X runner up: 'never say never'
O, October, the best month of the year. The sky gets grey in a nice kind of way and Halloween is prime. runner up: oval faces, owl hoots in cartoons
P, pyromania, is a hobby, not a psychological disorder. paper, cotton balls soaked in nail polish remover, boxes of jello, pens, markers, crayons, dried flowers. runners up: phil elvrum and Panic, for a nanosec like you forgot something, but really you have it with you
Q, "quiet, my parents are asleep", and then trying to walk on clouds to the basement. runner up: quid
R, replies. Sometimes, I write letters to people I admire. So far the list includes Kimya Dawson (Moldy Peaches), Adrock (Beastie Boys), and this writer lady named Lesley Arfin (Vice). When they write back, its like a spark, it makes you feel hot for a second, like you could burn. If you wrote me a letter, maybe wouldn’t write back to you. Maybe I would. runner up: Rushmore music, rained on windows
S, saying 'no' when you really mean 'yes'. this kills. runner up: sweet breath, say no more
T, tissue paper t-shirts, i had this idea a while ago. It’s a cool idea for the summer time. And our culture is becoming more and more disposable. The only hang up I foresaw was for people that smoke cigarettes. or whatever else. Runner up: tea.
U, unlocked car doors, this is my big s e c r e t… I never lock my car doors. Not because im so particularly trusting. Im mostly just lazy, nothing has been stolen, yet. I love not having to unlock anything when I want to leave somewhere in a hurry. I leave my windows open a lot too. So my cars been rained in lots, but once there was a squirrel who came inside to visit me. runner up: undo-ness becoming done
V, voting, for anything, because i should. runner up: vases made in sculpture class
W, wrong answers, by others. runner up: waterfalls
X, x-pletives. runner up: x-zine
Y, yellow eyes, like wolves not jaundice. runner up: year in review lists (olddd ones from the 70's)
Z, Zappa and captain beefheart. runner up: zach with an H- not zac(s)



then i found this at the end of the same file:

sometimes I feel so in love. with everything. filled so much that I feel my clothes tighter against myself. (dated: OCTOBER 2005)


in reevaluating this i noticed that i can only think of things i love when i try to think of things i hate. i can only think of things i hate when i try to think of the things i love.